wow... time flies man... just a glimpse and here i'm closing in to the end of year 2005... If you ask me why i'm here, dun tink i could answer that caused even myself not sure why i'm doin here... god knows! ehehehehe...
was going thru my memory chip and trying to re-call some of the events or things that happened during the year 2005, and all what I could retrieved from my old and malfunction memory was blank... nothing... it's that bad till i rather forget them all or it's just the age that's catching up or it's just me with that forgetful memory or it's just too personal to bring them up here... I guess it's a bit of each lump together.
yeah some events are meant to be forgetten and some are meant to be kept as fond memories so that one day when we browse through our memory lane, we'll be able to remember all the wonderful stuff that happen in our life which won't come that often. ugly events are doomed to be forgetten or be formatted, erased and burned from our memory to allow more space for new memory. to create a memory it's an easy process since it can be easily triggered from our thinking or thoughts but to delete them if a super-long-tough process which some managed to succeed while some may fail in doing so. for those who succeeded, bravo to them and for those whom failed, it's just going to be there forever but how dark or painful or silly that piece of memory is, as long as we keep them aside and continue to collect fond memories, they will one day leave us!
as for the age part, couldn't say more but to agree to it since it's taking a toll on everything i do from work to sport to sleep. ehehehehehe... who dares to deny old age? instead of letting them continue to slow us down, we should instead try our best to do our best each time. yeah, i may be slower in my response for some stuff but at the same time, i wiser and matured in my thinking which resulted in a similar or better outcome. but of course, it's very obvious especially when we sees it in our stamina level in doing any sports. when we were still young, anything we dare to do. we are not afraid to fall or get ourselves injured caused all these will only make it more interesting and us asking for more but as years passed by especially when u hit the mark and beyond, we start to take precaution and avoid doing rigorous exercise. as for the sleep, when i was young, i can live without sleeping for the whole nite and i'll still looks good and vigour the next day. But if u ask me to do the same now, i tink the next day will be a hell for me to live in and i'll be walking around like the living dead or zombie. Worst still, if you need to work the next day and all you could tink off in your mind is more and more rest and sleep. your brain maybe be working to a certain extend but physically you just feel yourself being drained off and feel kind of fragile.
Being forgetful has been my strength and weakness for the past year. Strength in helping me to forget those bad days and weakness for causing me to read over and over again for something small which by the time i can remember them, i've lost my patient. Maybe what people say abt you'll only remember it if you think it's something you really want to or like. Muahahaha....
Orh nothing personal here or nothing to hide... if you noticed, i've blurted all of them out right above this paragraph so i'm clean. ehehehehe... of course there are things out there which can only be reached within ourselves and not anyone else. deep inside each of us, there is alwiz a deep secret that we hold on to till our last breath rite? not for me coz I couldn't remember having any deep secret of grudge against anyone which deserved my attention till i need to bury so deep inside my memory even the memory tracker also couldn't find it.
hmmm... guess i've been doing or saying too much things which i'm not supposed to say here or do you really believe them or it's just something each and everyone of you experienced during a certain point in your life? Again, the answere for all of them will remains a secret... ehehehehehe... keep on digging... you may find yourself coming out of someone else nose... muahahahaha...
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